Still waiting on our court date. I will admit (those who are friends with me will nod in agreement) that I have been struggling.
My timeline, the government’s timeline, and God’s timeline are not at all matching up. We are more than 8 weeks waiting for our court date. Longer than the norm and no reasons as to why the delay. It frustrates me…and makes my heart hurt. I play out scenarios and timelines in my head and get anxious and worried.
I obsess at home and realize I’ve missed enjoying my day, my kids, and my life here and now. That’s not good.
I’ve ate more chocolate and watched more episodes of Dr. Quinn and The Waltons than I would have thought possible in the span of a couple of months.
That’s not good either—the waistline is increasing! :)
Several things have encouraged me today.
1) a friend posted this verse:
“Wait for the Lord; be strong, take heart and wait for the Lord" Psalm 27:14
It’s now written on my blackboard in the kitchen!
2) another friend sent me an email about running the race with patience.
Hebrews 12:1, "Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us."
3) I read this post at It’s Almost Naptime
4) The book One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp and this post by her today:
And my heart was encouraged by many notes and words of encouragement by friends. I am so thankful for them.
I joked that God sends me His word to me in multiple ways during the day because I am so thick-headed..and because He is so very patient with me.
I totally feel like I am behaving like an Israelite in the desert—whining and wanting to go back to Egypt.
Complaining about manna, being scared to go into the Promised Land.
And then I remember the ways He has encouraged me and shown His love for me.
Like here. The Next Journey
and here. Milk Duds, Penguins, & Coffee
I was feeling discouraged last week and God sent my own testimony back to me by the way of Katelyn’s Fund newsletter. A testimony I had written about God’s timing, provision and trusting in that! I think that God smiled while He did that. :)
I have seen actual miracles occur---before my own eyes
I look at this face (with his ‘cool’ smile)
and yet I still doubt His love and faithfulness.
Lord— in the words of Your disciples, “Increase our faith!”