written by the most fabulous person you will ever meet or not meet: Rebekah Mae, the favorite daughter of Charisa.
“Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.” 1 Timothy 4:12
Sooo. This year, I am a senior, not like an old person, but like in highschool.
“haha, but you’re homeschooled so technically you’re not in highschool.”
But I look younger (and maybe act sometimes), so it’s always awkward when people are like, shocked that I’m graduating this year.
This isn’t immaturity. This is just good fun.
This means it’s decision time, and everyone’s always like, “ohh you have time, don’t worry about it.” Dude. I am going to worry about it. This is one of the most defining choices in my life and I mean, I’d rather get this done sooner, rather than later.
But this is STRESSFUL. Seriously, my brain isn’t even fully developed, and my life’s path is basically in my hands?
But I have decided. Or probably, most likely decided. It could change. As of now, I’m planning on double majoring in Social Sciences and International Studies.
I dread people asking me what I’m planning on doing. People tell me all the time that I’m not going to make good money doing that.
Oh, I’m sorry, but I personally think that doing something you’re passionate about is more important than the money. I hope you enjoy your fulfilling life working in a job you hate making ‘good’ money.
“Don’t let your happiness depend on something you may lose” –C.S. Lewis
People tell me I’ve got to “be careful over there.” International studies doesn’t necessarily mean going overseas. But guess what, for me, I sure hope it does.
“I want adventure in the great wide somewhere, I want it more than I can tell. And for once it might be grand, to have someone understand, I want so much more than they’ve got planned.”
Risks are a part of life. You have to take them. Don’t be stupid, but take risks occasionally.
I guess I just expected people to be less critical of what I want to do, who I want to be. I’m sure everyone gets people telling them why they shouldn’t go into whatever field they want to go into…but I feel like I’m getting more than my friends who want to work more “usual” (and probably more well-paid) jobs. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think there is ANYTHING wrong with wanting to do something well-paid or common. It’s just not what I want to do and I’m sick of people telling me I shouldn’t. I’ve been told I’m “too smart” for social sciences. My guess is that was supposed to be an encouragement to do something else. I’m not one to usually take the easy way out. I tend to be an overachiever. I’m not trying to do something easy.
“I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody” -Bill Cosby
I was at work a few days ago and later in the afternoon it was really slow. This older man was waiting for his wife, and started talking to me. He asked me if I had graduated yet, I told him that I was a senior this upcoming school year. He asked me what I planned on doing afterwards. I said I was planning on majoring in Social Sciences (cringing on the inside, hoping this man doesn’t say anything rude—especially since I’m not allowed to be rude back…). He said, “really? that’s great!” and told me about his niece who had gone to school for that. I wanted to give that cute little man a hug, but not really, because that would be weird, and I don’t like to hug people.
Maybe that man was just being nice, but it’s just funny to me, that a complete stranger, who I had never seen before is more encouraging than people who have known me for forever.
I’m not saying I expect every person to jump up and down for me…but instead of telling me all the reasons I shouldn’t do something, please, just don’t say anything, because honestly, I’ve gotten to the point where, I don’t care. At all.
So this is my public service announcement:
I don’t care about the money, I’ll be okay. I’d rather have a job I can enjoy, than make loads of cash. I sure hope you’re not encouraging your kids to go into a field for the money. This is my life, not yours, stop telling me how I should live it. I want to travel, I want to see the world, there’s risks involved, but I'm okay with that. I want to make a difference, make changes, impact people’s lives.
“Keep away from people who belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great.” –Mark Twain
and then there’s still my indecisiveness telling me I want to be a photographer.